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Post by ruki okamura on Jul 25, 2009 20:03:13 GMT -5
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Post by ruki okamura on Jul 30, 2009 1:56:57 GMT -5
To Makoto,
So I finally started another journal, this time on my own. I picked you out of all that were there, as most of them weren't bright enough for me. Oh, and I named you because it's easier to write in a journal when it has a name. It makes it like you're actually communicating to someone.
Yeah, my last journal was something my mom made me do. It was because Reiko had just died and she felt her therapist was right in making me write down all my feelings about her death. I have to say that I feel kind of bad about that journal. It wasn't easy writing in it simply that I had nothing to say. What could I say? I think that something like "dear journal, my sister is gone. I don't know what to do," is quite all there is to say. I just didn't know what to do. And while I wasn't even close to her I just felt this strange feeling all over me, and it wasn't comfortable.
Well, I guess I'm talking to much about Reiko here, haha, I should save that for my other journal.
Anyway, school's started and I'm not happy with it. I don't have any friends there, just my old friends. Yes, I lost another set of friends just because they think I ignore them. I wasn't ignoring them, though, I was just... to laid back. I definitely should have paid more attention to responding in conversations. But there'll be no problem this year! I'll make some new friends, and maybe I'll even find a girlfriend.
I can't help feeling a little bad, though. I've yet to communicate with anyone excluding teachers. I've got detention, though, so I'll just have to put you away for now.
Best Regards
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Post by ruki okamura on Dec 21, 2009 20:08:39 GMT -5
To Makoto,
There's a ski trip coming up. I'm actually pretty excited abpout it, despite the fact that I really can't ski very well. My cousin, Hideki, might be coming from Japan so maybe he'll be able to come. I'm not sure, though if he even could if he wanted to. Plus, while I get along pretty well with him I don't enjoy all the teasing he does. I know he's good-natured about it but it's really not fun all the time. Plus, he doesn't speak English very well and my Japanese isn't the greatest, so I have to depend on my mother to translate everything whenever he gets fed up and just starts talking completely in Japanese. I think he should really get to improving on his English (like he thinks I should improve my Japanese) because he visits here every now and then, and English is even taught in the schools. He just doesn't pay attention in class, like me. Although for me it's because I zone out. For him it's probably because he's too busy flirting and goofing off.
And this girl I met in detention... I hope she goes. Maybe then we can get to know each other better.
Anyway, I just wanted to update you a little bit. I haven't much else to say, and I'd better get back to packing and my instant messenger, hopefully someone's on for me to talk to.
Best Regards
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Post by ruki okamura on Dec 28, 2009 3:22:59 GMT -5
To Makoto,
So, it's ski trip time! But I forgot my gloves, so I have to look for a new pair in the shi shop. Like that'll be so much fun. I had a hard enough time picking out the pair I foegot. I know I'm a tad obsessive about what I wear, but these gloves were great. They were easy to move in and had this padding on the palm side, so that I can open doors easily and handle my skis better. But... I suppose I'll just buy the cheapest pair I can find, being that I only brought so much money with me.
I don't remember if I took my laptop with me. I don't know if the ski lodge has Wi-Fi but I'd like to find out... if I brought my laptop. I'm too lazy to look for it right now, but if I don't have it I don't have it. I'm sure mingling with others would be a better use of my time... I guess. Speaking to others is becoming easier for me, and I'm not as indifferent as I was before. Things are starting to matter to me.
Anyway, did I tell you that the other day I met Brandon in the cafeteria? Yeah, I sat with him and everything but it was kind of awkward at first. He used to be one of my friends. So I'm excited. Maybe, because I'm changing, I'll be able to keep my relationships, rather than mess everything up again.
At any rate, I'm going to walk around the area for a little bit, and see if I can spot someone I know.
Best Regards
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